Sunday, July 13, 2008
title:{Love}
For the past few weeks I'm totally drained out by the kids and the huemengous workload. I'm spiritually dry and physically tormented by the flu virus. It's been 2 bloody weeks and I've yet to recover. Even my P pointed it out to me and ask me to lots of water and honey lemon. I've not been attending service and cell groups for weeks and I realised that my spiritual life started to dry up. I need to do something about it.
Many have been telling me that what I'm going through is a path that God wants me to go through to get me prepare for greater things. Similarly, Daniel and his friends had to go through burning alive in fire and being thrown into the lion den. God always deliver him through all these trials and Daniel became a stronger person who was valued by the Kings.
At times, I feel that no matter how hard I tried, things doesn't seems to be working out fine. I have telling myself that I need keep cool at all times and never throw my temper at my poor kids. No matter how hard I tried, there's bound to be a few kids trying to hard to push the button.
Earlier on, I was having my quiet time and God spoke to me-LOVE. Love your students just as you love me. I was stunned and really wonder how to love these kids. I have no attachement to them as they are always creating troubles for me. FYI, my level manager told me that I'm the record holder among my colleagues. The numbers of green forms that I've filled for the past three weeks is more than his three years teaching in the school. How am I going to love my kids and how am I going to fill up their emotion tanks. Each of them are individual and have their own needs. It's simply too diversive to fill up the 5 languages of love. I must think of a solution, I really need to think of a way out. It would be pointless by scolding and disciplining my kids, when they don't feel my sincerity and love.
Just like what Yvonne said, "when you love God, you will be committed to Him. Likewise, when you love your students, you will be committed to them."
I guess my lesson on Earth is learn how to love because life is all about love and God is love.
Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."
Matthew 22:37-40 NLT
Saturday, July 05, 2008
title:{Two weeks}
Transition has been taking place in my life for the past two weeks. For the past two weeks, frustration, disappointment, anguish, weariness had overwhelmed my life. I was exhausted and aggravated by my class uncooperativeness, bad behaviour and attitude. These group of students are totally different from St. Nic girls. Maybe my expectations for these kids are too high or maybe I'm too stern with them.
I personally feel that this class is seriously lack of discipline and ill mannered. Children never raise their hands before sharing. They always bicker in class over minor things and fought in class. Within two weeks, I have written 3 behaviour reports and 1 incident reports. The class monitoress is forever blur and not discern at all, she doesn't even bother to ask the class to greet the teacher till I pointed it out. I'm observing her reactions and felt that there's room for improvement.
I'm glad that I've went to Pastor Mike Corner conference for teachers. Peina and I managed to catch the words from God and it acts to a confirmation to our calling. Hopefully, we are able to change our environment in our classroom, especially our children's behaviour. I'm so bless by the word of God today. School is not just a place but rather a ministry. I have to change my mindset and not be blinded by things which I see. Take initative and shine for Christ.
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