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New Year Resolution

2010-01-03T01:45:00.002+08:00

It's been a long long time since I last blogged. 2010 will be an exciting year for Iain and I; our customary wedding. Gosh... I really need to slim down real fast for our photo shoot and wedding. Nevertheless, it goes right down to our diet and thanks to our parents who have been feeding us non-stop. Ha ha....

Guess it's time to be diligence in doing facial treatment, slimming program, work out program. I have been stop going to gym for a long time even though there's a gym at our rented condo. I shall have no excuse to swim everyday since there a pool available and it's rather silly not to make use of these facilities to facilitate my slimming program.

Mum, Siva and Jessie commented that I start to look aged and it's time for me to do about it. Hopefully, the collogen drink will help.

2010 resolution is pretty much similar to 2008 and 2009.

Driving license-I'm just so lazy to get it done.
Slimming down to 43kg. Hopefully.. keeping my finger cross.
Work harder and put in more effort in my studies. In fact, I was so tired that I gave up my last question, answering it effortlessly during my exam. May be I could have gotten a grade higher.
Save more $. This is definitely a thing that I must do. Financial management which I'm so suck in it.
Be a more loving and understanding wife. Probably going gym with Iain more often.
Most importantly, spend more time with God. I really need to grow more closer to God as I'm kinda of lacking due to the tight schedule in work.
Work smart and hard...Aiming for promotion in 2 years time.
Eat plenty of fruits for lunch and skip dinner if possible
To be more tolerating and forgiving towards my MIL at times.

One more month to go......

2009-06-04T23:14:00.003+08:00

This has been a very exciting month for Iain and me. Firstly, it's the June holidays and we are preparing our wedding preparation. Hopefully, we need not to go back to school next week except Monday for closing the account for this term. I dread doing accounts and I don't know why I am selected to be treasurer. Haha... Especially for someone who has no finance management skills even though I'm a business graduated. :p

Anyway, I've managed to survive through my first year of my bond with MOE. Phew... time really flies fast and I'm accepted for my 2nd degree course. Hmmm.... seems like I can never stop studying and only to realise that I've only stop studying for a year in my whole entire life! Gosh... Unbelievable! I really wonder when I will stop studying. Haha... probably Master follow by PHD??? Guess that Iain and I have to do some planning for our studies as he may want to pursue his Master.

Getting late... Time to go to bed and prepare for tomorrow Sexuality Education Course for Primary Education. Hey, don't think otherwise! All thank to AWARE lor... What to do...... have to BEWARE!*sigh*

Trust in the Lord

2009-05-13T01:12:00.003+08:00

Had a great chat with Mrs. Lim and was greatly encouraged by her.

I realised that my faith in God is so tiny and my walk with God is backslided. Work has taken up almost all of my life and time. It's totally overwhelming and choking up to the bottleneck. At times, I felt I'm so distant away from God and unable to sense His presence. After chatting with Mrs. Lim, I reflected upon our conversation. I've too little faith in God and does not trust Him wholeheartedly. I'm always doing things by my ways but not His.

'Trust in the Lord and have faith in Him. For He is always in good hand. Pray!" I shall always keep this in mind.

2009-05-10T17:03:00.002+08:00

Have been busy with marking, setting paper and endless catching up with time to finish up the syllabus. Finally, a long weekend to catch up with my work and outstanding marking. Taking my own pace, cleaning up my pig sty. Hee hee... Finally, I can see walking space and seating space.

Just realised that we need to prepare lot of things for our wedding and looking for helper isn't as easy as what I think. :( I need to find church musician to play music and back singer. Oh my... who to find??????? Han and Gina will not be able to make it. Sad! Kinda of start feeling stress... oh no...

YEAH!!! We've won!

2009-03-21T18:06:00.002+08:00

Hip, hip, hurray! After 2 months of hard work and training, 22nd and 68th Girls Brigade Coy has won silver for creative drill competition! All thank to Sarah and Faith who has been training the girls hard for months. Karen, who always there by my side, struggling through with me. How could I forget my hubby who faithfully drives me back to school on every Saturday for training in school and also in GB center. My 22nd coy bao bei, thank you for putting in the hard work. Most importantly, is our wonderful Lord! Thank God for all His blessing and love for our coy. Despite the fact that our girls committed a couple of mistakes, He carried us through the competition and bless Deborah with strength to complete the drill competition. Thank God for speedy healing for Deborah who almost fainted just before we were about to get ready for our competition. Praise the Lord for blessing us this silver award from COP to what we have this year! Hallelujah!

WELL DONE, GIRLS!

Surpise!!!!

2009-02-24T05:21:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, Dear was so sweet, bought me a ipod touch to surprise me! Awww....... I never thought that he would buy it for me cos he knew that I'm going to buy it next month. Sweet! Dear is so thoughtful and cleverly planned everything without me knowing. First he sent me for Marie France bodyline for slimming then he went to Cinieleisure to purchase it. Then, he put it into my bag, stuff it with the worksheets. Haha... I was wondering since when did my bag turn so bulky and why was there a orange JBL earphone box. Haha.. I was caught in surprise and squeaked in excitement. Ha ha... you could imagine how happy I was at that very moment.

In fact, all the while I wanted to have a PDA phone even though that I know PDA and Phone system doesn't really synchronise. Later, Kumar introduced us his ipod touch which was pretty cool. Dear bought it using the LDS fund, while I use it to buy quickurt revo tool. Ha ha.... so much into scrap booking.

After seeing Iain having so much fun and convenient with his ipod touch, I was kinda of tempted to buy one. I really love it's notes, calendar application cos I always misplaced my notebooks and papers. In fact, I lost 3 notebooks since I've started working for the past 6 months. On average, I lost 1 notebook on every 3 months. Ke ke...I was "in debt" with my credit card, am pretty broke this month. Dear bought it for me as an early anniversary present!

Hopefully, I can be more organized with the schedule applications.

V-day celebration

2009-02-15T11:38:00.002+08:00

Ever since the school term started in Jan, Iain and I have been working continuously at all times, including Chinese New Year. Sounded depressing huh. Not much of a choice, I reckon.

Yesterday was a mad rush day for us. We started work at 8am (even though, it's Saturday), We went back to school to oversee the Boys' and Girls' Brigade training for the upcoming competitions. In fact, we were busy decorating our classroom and to ensure all pins up were tightly secured. So much of last min work, just for the CDA team.

We spend our afternoon babysitting Evangelyn since Dorothy won't be home after 2pm. I can't leave Evangelyn in school, so I brought her Sembangwan shopping center for sushi lunch. Glad that she was so happy!

Iain and I headed to GB Headquarters to submit the BOTC application. Hippie.... I'm going to be a GB officer, serving God in the marketplace.

Finally, we managed to get home for a rest and have meet up for dinner at my favourite restaurant, Korean BBQ Chicken. Walked around Orchard and headed home to do marking. Instead of marking, we ended up dozing off on our bed, leaving our hot tea on the table.

I reckon that life is such especially when you are a teacher. Hmmm...... recently, I have been seeing Mrs Lim, my principle and Ariel appearing in my dreams lately for the past few days. I think I'm over stressed. Ha ha....... Got to continue my marking marathon.

Happy "Nu" Year

2009-01-29T17:54:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year! New or rather "nu" (ox) year doesn't seem bright. The economic down turn and upcoming years seem so bleak. Hopefully, with the government measures will help to sustain the economy.

Anyway, enough of these gloomy stuffs. CNY has been a good one for Iain and I. We managed to spend time with our family and visit our relatives. We bought my cousins out for a midnight show after reunion dinner. Inkheart is a pretty good fantasy film for all ages. Hui was so happy to be able to stay overnight at my house.

On the first day, I was practically stuck in my grandparents place despite the fact that we have told my grandparents not to go back to Geylang Bahru. Nevertheless, they insisted on going back. Well, seem like we can't do much to them. Iain visited us in the evening at Geylang Bahru after family gathering at Sommerville.

Went back to Iain's place to visit his parents, Cai Ba and Cai Ba Mei. Mummy cooked my fav braise trotter... Drool.... Felt so guilty after eating it. Well, it's time to hit the gym.

Just received a call from Dear, our house loan is approved which means that we have successfully purchase our apartment! PTL!!! Can't wait to have a house of our own and open it for cell group meeting. Wheeeeeeeeeee! Hippi Yippi

Our new apartment!

2009-01-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

PTL! We finally got our apartment! Ke ke...... The Lord is SO good to us. Iain and I have been praying for an ideal home and God grant our wish. Our ballot number for Natural Loft at Bishan, a DBSS housing was 53. Iain has been praying for queue number 2 while I prefer 8. Well, God is fair. We got 53. 5+3=8 and 5-3=2. Ha ha..... Thank God that our ballot number slot was in afternoon as Iain and I have to go back to school in the morning.

We have paid our first 5% for our selected unit and really grateful to Lord for his financial blessing. Iain mummy and daddy wanting us to buy 18 floor unit which was $500 000 over, which has exceeded our budget. Iain and I insisted on buying 15 floor unit as we do not want to over burden ourselves. Later, we found out that the building was elevated up by 3 storey high then other blocks due to the underground car park. Literally, we will be staying on the 18 floor! Ha ha... This makes everyone happy.

I'm looking forward designing my own apartment and our wedding in less than 6 months time! Hee hee

Happy New Year 2009

2009-01-01T23:00:00.003+08:00

Goodbye 2008, hello 2009!

Last night, we spent our thanksgiving at Yvonne and Vic place with Vic's students. We had our count down at their place. Pretty fun.

Looking back in 2008, I really thank God for his endless blessing and transformation in life. From a trainee to a teacher, from single to engaged, from daughter to future daughter in law. So many changes in life.

I really wanna to thank you Father for blessing me with my dream job and I do complain a lot about my job. Nevertheless, You have blessed me with strength and wisdom to carry on with this job. I really grateful as I really need You to carry me on. Although I'm considered as a BT, ample of opportunities were also there for me to grab on. I know that without your blessing and coverage, these opportunities would never happened. Favour upon people was so great and influential. Most importantly, with your blessing and anointing, Mrs Lim was very happy and open to Iain and I dating together in our workplace.

In 2008, I have been through a rocky path in relationships. I thank You for your wisdom and discerning of the Holy Spirit, which have help me to mature and knowing when to end unfruitful purposes. I'm know that I've sinned against You many times, going against Your will and plans. Knowing that I should no longer holding on to things that are unfruitful, yet I'm refused to let go due to my stubbornness. I thank you for sending people in my life, sharing their experience with me. I know that it's not by coincidence, it's by Your grace and plan. I'm glad that You have never give up on me.

By Your grace and might, I've successfully graduated from NIE. I still remembered how much I have to go through my practicum. Looking back, I'm so blessed by your grace and blessing upon me. You have never short change me in all things. You blessed with the one of the best school in Singapore for my practicum, the best CTs, the friends who I can really depends on. And now, you have the blessed me with the man of my life. I know that he's the best for me cos he's a blessing from You, Lord.

2008 is the year which Lord, You have told me to learn how to love people, especially my students. I thank You for Your valueable lessons and now I've learnt how to love and be loved.

Father, I pray that this new year, 2009 would be a better year ahead. With the upcoming recession, I pray for divine proctection and blessing upon our lives, careers, health and relationship. I pray that You would grant us wisdom in handling all things and issues in life, work and relationship so that we can honour Your name. I pray for favour upon people in our workplace and relationship with our colleague will be a positive one. Father, I promise that Iain and I will be more devoted in 2009 and to serve You in Your court. I pray that You could give us a common vision and mission so that we could serve You as one.

Once again, Lord, I thank You for the wonderful blessing in 2008 and I know that 2009 will be a better year. Thank You, Father.

Amen

Disappointment after another

2008-12-25T16:03:00.003+08:00

Disappointment after another...... Is this how I'm going to spend my xmas with tears?

Disappointment after another, can't believe that he broke his promise and keep mum till I found out. I simply can't believe what I heard from him when I questioned him. How I wish my senses were failing at that point of time when I questioned him. After going through so much agony to kick his habit, he picked it up in the morning while out with his friend.

I was render speechless and my heart was cold when he admitted it.

What's with 2008 xmas? So much for xmas eh.

Merry Xmas

2008-12-25T11:03:00.003+08:00

Merry Xmas to everyone! I hope that everyone has enjoyed yourselves unlike me.

Iain and I planned to go to church with our friend, Winnie but the service was fully packed and we have no choice but to head somewhere else. We ended up in Katong Village and had a couple of drinks.

Initially, I planned a surprise for Iain but in the end it didn't work out since he has a plan of his own. After the drinking session, we sent Winnie to Clarke Quay and headed home and ended the day with argument. So much for Xmas, huh...... I was so upset and told him off that I will never celebrate xmas with him besides xmas party. All plan has failed to launch and after all he has his own movie plan with his bubby at 1.45a.m. Anyway, this would be our first and last xmas as dating couple and it seems like he doesn't really understand the significant of it.

2008 xmas was not a day for me. As a tradition in our family, we always celebrate together but this year my family was having holiday in Hainan Island. I thought that I could celebrate with Iain since he's part of family and yet we didn't really manage to.

So much to do yet nothing work out. I planned to go for 10a.m service but was put off since Iain reached home around 4a.m. today. I doubt that we are able to make it for 12.30p.m service as people have already started queuing up at 10a.m. All the xmas spirit has been dampened and I have to watch it online at home alone.

That's how I spend my 2008 xmas-so much of fun.

Got to go now, need to clean up my house before my folks come back tomorrow.

Poor hubby

2008-12-16T23:25:00.003+08:00

Poor hubby, strained his lower back muscle yesterday while working out in gym and today he slipped and stumbled two steps down the stairs.

He was in great agony and trying hard to catch his breath. Clinging on tightly to the grails, he broke into cold sweat and complained about feeling nauseous. I was in total panic attack, not knowing what to do.

In the end, we walked back home to rest. Iain's mummy was very upset and got daddy to buy dinner for us. Poor darling, injured his back and now his left foot. Sob sob......

Dear Father in heaven,
I thank you for your constant look out upon Iain and me. I pray for divine protection upon him and speedy recovery. Lord, I pray in Jesus name that you'll heal Iain and remove the pain in his wound and strengthen him for his daily chores. Father, protect him from harm and send forth angels to look after him and bless him with divine protection and journey mercy.
Amen.

I'm so excited for tomorrow as I'm going for my slimming programme at Marie France Bodyline. Thanks dear for signing it up for me. Hopefully, I can slim down for our wedding in July. :) Hugz..
Love you!

Weekend getaway......

2008-12-13T20:01:00.004+08:00

Just had a weekend getaway yesterday at Fairmont hotel. Anyway, the hotel is free since it's prepaid by my father. Ho ho ho...... Checked in the room the at 2pm and sat on the bed watching National Geographic and Discovery Channel. Iain and I were simply stuck in the box and couldn't move our butt.

We also went to do shopping and got some great deals. Iain bought a suit for $69 whereby the original price is $369. Whoa... $300 bucks off! Worthy splurged! Got myself a little black dress from Robinson. Ke ke......

Later, we met up with our cell group at Mind Cafe and had a terrific gaming session. I realised that Iain is neither spatial nor auditory learner (cos he simply suck in those kind of games). Opps... Ha ha... anyway, he's very good in word guessing games... Guess that's SA boys forte-linguistic.

Checked out of the hotel and we had breakfast at Out of the Pan, my fav-Waffle!!! Drool... Darling had to make a sacrifice as he does not really fancy crepe and waffle. Awww... thanks dear for compromising.

After that, we decided to shop for DVD and bought "Dude, Where's my car?" We continued window shopping for furniture for our new home. Found some good deals but it's too early to buy them as our not yet confirmed house will be ready in 3 years time. We were very sure that we'll definitely get our house in Bishan by faith.

Today was our first time that we took bus together as we sent our car to garage for touch up on paint work. Iain was not very used to it after he has been driving since living in Australia for the past 7 years. Journey back home from Liang Court was tedious and long as compared to driving.
Despite the long journey, we enjoyed ourselves very much for this weekend getaway.

First Time

2008-12-09T14:28:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the first time to watch Evangelyn's Thanksgiving performance.

First time that Iain did not attend such function.

Our first arugment.

First time he cut off the line.

First time I took the initiative to call him after he cut off the line. (Usually, I won't even bother to call back.)

First and last time he promised me that he will never do it again. :)

Resting

2008-12-03T20:28:00.004+08:00

Since 14 Nov 08, I've been battling with flu bug till now. Over the long painful battle, my body was weaken and surrendered. I was down with high fever on Saturday. Despite the fact that I've been popping pills faithfully, yet the fever did not subside. Instead, it increased to 39.4 Degree Celsius.

Both Dr Alvin and Iain started to get worry as Dr Alvin had already maxed the dosage. Sadly, due to allergy to dicoflenac, there wasn't any available drugs except paracetamol. All I could do was to sponge my fever down with ice pack and intake of plenty water. This torment carried on for days as the temperature constantly fluctuated.

Through out these days, I'm so bless to have Iain by my side, taking good care of me.

Dear,

Thank you for taking care of me and I'll never forget how much you have gone through to buy the herbal tea in late night and making the ling yang drink for me. How can I forget your mummy. She's even more anxious and worried than my mum. Mummy in law is so sweet and really took good care of me. Upon knowing that I'm down with high fever, she prepared a nice portion of porridge that could last for lunch and dinner for me. On top of that, she also prepared green bean soup for me. Feel so sayang by your family.

I'm so sorry that because of me, you fell ill in the end. Hugs......

Thank you, love.

Rec

2008-11-18T13:13:00.003+08:00

Throughout my life, I seldom watch horror movies and I can simply count the number of times with my fingers.

Last night, Iain and I went to catch 'Rec'. Iain is a huge fan for gruesome, horror, zombie movies which was a total no no for me. I decided to 'sacrifice' myself to accompany him as way to be fair. I was keeping my finger cross, hoping that I'll not scream out my of wits.

Verdicts on the movie was pretty good but I found the pace slow. Somehow, I was kind of irritated by the way the film was directed and film which in turn, causing headache for Iain and me. Thank God that I didn't scream in the movie but was gripping Iain's arm tight. Poor darling... Ha ha..

Surprise, surprise!

2008-11-17T10:11:00.004+08:00

Since 14 Nov till yesterday 16 Nov, there was ample of surprises for me. 14 Nov was the last day of my school week and we had prize giving for the students and surprise awards for teachers!

14 Nov 2008
Woke up with sore throat and felt feverish and popped some pills prescribed by doc. Despite having MC, I still head down to school for my prize table duty. After giving out academic awards to students, teachers were called out to receive awards too. None of the staffs know about this including us. I could say that the school is good at keeping secrets. From the stage, I saw Iain queueing up to receive his awards for 'Supporting Teacher Award'. At that moment, I thought to myself, alas, my hubby's hard work is all well paid off. Everyone knows that he's arrowed for every event for ICT, sound, video/photo taking and all sort of last min work. Iain would never say no and would gladly take up the job without grumbling. That's the reason why I love him more than ever. Good attitude determines your altitude. Shining for Christ in the marketplace.

Much to my surprise, my name was called out for the 'Promising New Teacher Award'. I was so happy and felt more affirm than ever for my calling. Out of 6 new teachers, I'm the only one who received this award. God is always so gracious towards me and assured me in times of doubt. Moreover, there was also addition of $100 cash bonus which amounted to my monthly building fund pledge. God is indeed a Jehovah Jireh. Love you, Agapa!

In evening, we went to Orchard hotel, MOE DND and we were seated right behind our principal, Mrs Lim. Based on my observant, Mrs Lim seemed to be in good mood and I was strongly prompted by the holy spirit to break our wedding news to her. Bracing our courage, Iain and I turned around and spoke to her.

Iain and I: Mrs Lim, we have something to share.

Mrs Lim: (Smiling) Yes, Iain and Sandra, what do you want to share with me?

Me: Mrs Lim, I hope that I won't give you a shock or heart attack. Ermmm... Promise me that you won't get angry.

Mrs Lim: Ok. I promised I won't be angry.

Iain: We are together and we are getting married next year.

Mrs Lim: OOOOOOhhhhhhhh!!! Congratulations! Silly girl, why would I be angry? I have been hoping that the young teachers in my school will get married soon! So when is your big day?

Iain and I: 4 July 2009 and chinese dinner will be in 2010.

Mrs Lim: Why so late? Make it earlier.

Iain: We are trying to save money, moreover, we need pay for our house.

Mrs Lim: (laughs) Oh yes... keep your wedding simple and save up more your house. Where are you guys having your ROM?

Us: Mandai Orchid Gardens. Outdoor, garden theme.

Mrs Lim: OOohhh... so romantic, just like Iain. hee hee... Talking about getting angry, am I the last person to know? If i'm, I will be angry.

Me: No no, you're not. Mr Goh, Ariel do not know.

Mrs Lim was laughing and got excited. She was happy that she wasn't the last person to know. I felt so relieve after breaking the news to her. When Mrs Lim gripped hold of my hands, somehow, I felt a sense of assurance and affirmation that I've made the right choice marrying to Iain.

15 Nov 2008
Darling surprised me by popping at my door with a birthday cake and sang birthday song. I was blushing all the way and bowed my head down shyly. Daddy and mummy were giggling behind me and Iain still continued singing. Goshhh.... must be hard on Darling. Hee hee......

Went to church for service and had a fab fellowship with my CG.

16 Nov 2008
My birthday! Had breakfast with Iain family along with my family and Yeye. Iain's eldest sis, Evelyn, treated us as my birthday gift. So sweet of her! I've felt so loved by his family. Attended Victoria's baby shower. Victoria looks like her daddy. Cute!
Brought Hui and Jun Wen out for movie-Madagascar 2. Grabbed 2 tops from Club Marc sales. Met up with Liana and she bought a bangle and ear ring for me. I love the bangle.. so me! Ha ha.. And the ribbon ear ring is sooo nice!!! keke.. Liana knows me best!

Finally! Phew!

2008-11-06T16:27:00.003+08:00

After 3 hectic weeks, finally everything has more or less settled. Yesterday was the stressful day of the whole curriculum-Mark processing day. My class cockpit was totally screwed up and it keep prompting the main server-incomplete. I was really puzzled and wondered what's wrong with my class result tabulation. After much commotion, Iain pointed out the error-missing SA1, CA1, input for the new student. Managed to get Miss Oh to settle it for me.

Today, I received my class report slips and was signing it. Then, I realised that there's error in printing for my 1st 8 students remarks. The new remarks did not overwrite the old ones. I was totally freak out. Thank God for his grace and mercy. Miss Oh, overall in charge for cockpit, was kind enough to help me to look through the system and re print it out for me. #

Hmmm.... I guess I'm just technology jinxed. Still remember the times, when I had observation for my practicum in St nic, the projector screen was down when I wanted to use it. The best part was that my colleague was using it 5 mins ago! Jinxed, jinxed, jinxed...... Tsk, tsk.... Lesson learnt-ALWAYS print the remarks before confirming it with the level manager. Phew...... Thank God that everything managed to end smoothly.

Tomorrow is the last day of shifting our stuffs out of our cubicles. For the past 2 weeks, Iain and I have been trying to pack our stuffs in the midst of peak session. I'm glad that my stuffs have already cleared and all nicely packed in the classroom. I wonder how's Iain going to pack his stuffs since he has lots of 'junks' at his desks. Poor darling, still overseeing the school prize giving day rehearsal.

Time for me to go now!

Sorry dear

2008-10-29T23:39:00.002+08:00

I realised that I'm such a terrible gf to Iain and I can never hide things from him. He seemed upset even though he claimed he wasn't after hearing me telling him that I called xh regarding computer stuff. He just simply replied, "It's your life."

My heart broke when he made that remark. At the moment, I felt as though as he had given up in this relationship. (I usually said that to my students when I feel like giving up.) I simply shut my mouth and hold back my tears. I have never ever felt so lousy before! Then, I realised that how much Iain meant to me. Silly me, hurted him unintentionally.

Dearest,
I'm sorry! :(

18 October 2008

2008-10-19T14:01:00.007+08:00

18 October 2008, a day which I will never forget. A day filled with lots of love and joy.

Janice and Eugene have finally tied their knots! I feel so happy for them. After being through so many hardship, alas, this couple have their hearts united as one.

Meet up with Zhen Qi, Sean, Jennifer and Mel for dinner to celebrate Jen's birthday. As well as introducing Iain to them. Mel and gang were happy for me as they can sense that Iain is the right one for me.

Iain was up to something in his sleeves and went 'toilet break' for 30 min in midst of dinner. Sean was sure that he went to get something for me. Speaking of devil, here comes the devil, Iain gave me a surprise which we have all anticipated. He proposed to me again. This time round was a more formal one, with a proposal ring and flower.

Went home and show mummy the proposal ring, mummy was so thrilled and happy for me. Mummy commented that she feels relieved that Iain is taking good care of me and our family. She's happy that her future son in law is a generous person who is willing to splurge on me.

Looking back, God has been gracious upon Iain and I. Iain was promoted early this month and had financial break through in the midst of financial crisis. The extra finance has relieved our finance burden in saving up for our wedding and house. As for me, God has blessed favour upon people in my work place. Siva has been trying to give me opportunities to perform in school. Although it was a small task, I've managed to get things done and build some rapport with my P. Ariel, my supervisor, has been pushing me hard and get me going. Thought of it, her high standard demands have help me to handle things better. My EPMS is almost done and things are flowing well. I have no worries about rushing my year end EPMS. All thanks to God for all the goodness and blessing in life, Amen.

Here's the picture of my proposal ring, which my hubby spent his hard earned money on.

My proposal ring and wedding band.

Tulips!

Marking madness

2008-10-14T20:32:00.002+08:00

Since last thursday, my school was having SA2 paper. Iain and I were rushing like mad trying to clear our marking, trying our best to return books to our kids. We were marking non stop over the weekend. Iain mummy was complaining that we spent most of our time marking books till late night over the weekend. I can understand how mummy feels and I have admitted that Iain and I sometimes neglected her. How I wished that we could have more time to spend with mummy.

I still have piles of workbooks and worksheet to be marked. Anyway, I'm so proud that I've managed to clear one stack of 26 set of past year exam papers within 30mins. I took approximately 1 min to mark one set of paper.Hmmm... efficiency!

Had our common marking for paper 1. Oh my, the high ability class wrote on average at least 2 to 4 pages. Mind you, they are just only P2. Expected that my class can't make it for their paper 1. Terrible passing rate...... maybe my expectation is too high.

Got to continue to do marking again. Sigh.......

Another day has gone by

2008-10-09T13:35:00.003+08:00

Another day has just gone by...... Just finish marking health education paper. Few kids failed their paper. I know that many must be wondering how could one fail health education paper. Apparently, those kids did not read the questions and did not pay attention in class. Sighzzz..Ultimately, they will still be graded C.

Iain and I had a good talk yesterday. I can understand how Iain's mummy feels about the way Iain is treating me. She fears that I will be spolit by him in the end. I do feel pamper by him at times and I feel that I've been spoilting him at times too. Ke ke...... GTG for lunch now. Another round of teaching later at 2pm. Teacher's life is never easy.

Relax day

2008-10-05T23:52:00.002+08:00

Went through a stress Saturday marking at Iain's house and Pet's cafe. I was so tired and started to get cranky.

The biggest distraction I had to resist is TV! Iain and I watch 'Office', Iron man' DVD which I've bought for him on Friday. I was totally hooked onto the screen and couldn't do any of my work. I would say that it's not very productive and my pace was staggered. Then I realised that I haven't really clear my workbooks which are piling at his living room! Shity huh. Set a time frame that I have to finish all my marking for workbook by Sat and should not procrastinate longer. That's when stress started to sank in and I started to mark like a marking machine at Pet's cafe with Ginger boy. Thankfully, the staffs are kind enough to babysit Ginger while I do my marking. Darling had to send Junwen back home and joined us later.

Had a great massage and facial today. Felt so much better and relax. Darling is so nice, came over this morning and we were suppose to go church. However, we decided to give it a miss cos daddy just came back from Sri Lanka yesterday. I feel like having breakfast with daddy, miss his presence at home. Iain and I went to 'That CD shop' to look for CD for our wedding. Manage to found 2 and 1 for myself. Kuching, there's goes my 107 bucks.

I ended my great day with cardio work out with Iain. :)

Agatha! Agatha!

2008-09-27T15:25:00.002+08:00

This week was a hectic week for me. Wednesday, was a mad rush for Iain and I. After my oral duty, I had a meeting with the psychiatrist regarding my student's case. After that, we had to rush off to Thompson plaza for banking errands and buying present for Gina's birthday. Darling had to rush off back to his camp after dropping me off and managed to join the CG at International building for dinner. He arrived later than I expected and started to worry that he might be lost. Alas, he reached the restuarant at 8.45p.m. Never did I expect that he would give me a surprise. He bought a pair of Agatha white hairclips and a brown Muchas hair clip with a delicate crystal stub. I was amazed by his effort and taste. I mean, how many guys know what these kinds of stuffs. Agatha, Muchas hair clips...... I have admitted that my hubby's fashion sense is good and I really love the hair clips especially the Agatha ones. I simply love the terrier shape!

Poor darling, down with throat infection after over strained his vocal on Thursday. Managed to assign his class with some work and relief them at the last period of the day. Manvin, one of the naughty cheeky kids addressed me as Mrs Lok. Render speechless, thinking to myself, do I look that old? Mrs Lok!? I was tempted to correct him that it should be Mrs Iain Wong, not Mrs Lok! Ha ha...... Bet that he wouldn't be surprised as he always wait for us the foyer, greeting us with his cheeky smile. Anyway, I'm glad that I'm manage to "escape" from school without being seen by Ariel. Ha ha...... I manage to end my remedial class at 3.30p.m. and left school early. Rush back home to continue to amend my EPMS. Almost drain out my brain juice and didn't manage to sleep for a day! I'm surprised that I've managed to survive my day well with only 2 hours nap. Caffine does the trick!

Looking forward to have my kimchi! Yum yum......

depress again

2008-09-23T19:37:00.002+08:00

Monday blues has extended to Tuesday. Sigh...... What a day to start with a parent's phone call at 6.45am telling me that her son did not complete his work. Complaining about me giving too much homework to his son. In fact, it's only 2 maths worksheets and 1 OE comprehension. The best thing is that the math's topic is on graph and one page consist of 1 question and there's only 11 short questions. The comprehension is a piece of cake since it's from the workbook. I see no reason why he can't complete his work at home. This is the second time that his mum asked me to excuse her precious spoilt brat. I reckon she spoilt him to the core, fancy to bring him to India in the midst of CA exams. The most outrageous thing was, she even has the cheek to ask me when was the school holidays and wishes to extend her trip till the end of September holidays. I was fuming mad and thinking what's in her mind. Furthermore, she even dared to lie to me that she's preparing her son for his Mother Tongue exam. Thinking that I'll buy her story, I told her off, telling her that she's suppose to prepare her son for English oral examination instead of Mother Tongue examination which is in 2 days time. How I wish that I could knock some sense into her brain.

Anyway, enough of complaining about her, I had a terrible time in school today > _< class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">accumulating on my desk. I started to feel panicky and realised that there's lots of marking to do! Oh my! Left with no alternative, I have pack ONE CARTON and ONE BIG BAG FULL of books and worksheet home to mark. In fact, there's a few piles on my desk too.

Honestly speaking, I don't really enjoy my work beside knowing my hubby in school. I feel that it's hard to find a so called friend in your workplace. Maybe like what Iain said we can only find true friend in school not in workplace. Ultimately, there's a line between work and friends. I feel so terrible and lonely. I miss Michelle!! Thank God, I still have Iain by my side, listening to me and always cheering me up in work. How I wish I could do more for Iain just as much as what he has done for me.

Bridal Studio Shopping

2008-09-15T23:35:00.003+08:00

We have been searching and researching for bridal services. We kinda of realised that every shops offer similar services, except for the gown and photography style. Research have been done online and we kind of considered Precious Moment at Thompson. We drove down and thought of meet up the staff to find out more. When we reach there, the sale assistant simply refuse to serve us and told us to called up to make appointment. I was so pissed off and was disappointed by their service as there was many accolades for their good service. Apparently not, their service suck! They could simply fixed an appointment date with us on the spot instead of giving us a name card and insisted that we should call to fix an appointment. We left the place with disappointment and headed to Thompson bridal. Their services are so expensive and the photography is ..... no comments.

In the end, we ended up at Seletar Broadway, which is just opposite my block! Iain likes their photography and their offer was attractive and reasonable. After much hesitation, the sale assistant keeps throwing freebies and cash discount for us. Dar really squeezed them dry and we secured lots of goodies! We decided to sign up with them. We like the idea of made to measure gown which we can design our own gown and most importantly, there's no time limit in holding the package. We were happy with the unlimted time frame as we planned to have our customery wedding in 2010.

Thank God for His wonderful blessing!

Happy 1 month anniversary

2008-09-14T12:14:00.001+08:00

Happy 1 month anniversary, dear! We had a long in school on Friday. After the PSLE listening comprehension exams, we have to stay back in school to prepare Mid Autumn Festival Celebration as Minister of Health and the media were coming over for visitation. Iain and I had a mad rush throughout since morning till late night. We have to be in school at 7am to prepare listening comprehension exams. After that, I had a science committee meeting which lasted 1 hour. Iain managed to go Causeway Point to grab lunch for me. So sweet of darling. After that, we went to Mandai Orchid Garden to meet Christain to discuss the solemenzation package. We like the package and services very much and had decided to book the venue.

After a long day of work and wa yang in school, we reached home at around 11p.m. We were so tired and couldn't really open our eyes. Dar, suggested that we'll go Mac for celebration of our 1st month anniversary. I knew that he was just kidding and just played along with him. In fact, it was Iain's mummy who spilled out the beans. Ha ha... So mummy killed the surprise.

We headed down to Sentosa, KM8, the place where we first dated. There wasn't much people at KM8 cos it was already closed and we sat at the sun chair to chill. It was so thoughtful of dar to prepare cake, wine and flowers! It's so romantic! The tight schedule has compelled Iain to be creatived and yet romantic. I was touch and yet feel so guilty for not doing much for him. Darling bought a Kate Spade wallet for me! Hee hee... It's my very first red wallet! I bought him a Tommy Hilfiger polo tee.

We went to bridal fair at Suntec in the evening. We visited 3 booths and decided to head home. The sale assistants were into hard core sale which drained 3/4 of our brain juice. At the end of the 1.5 hours, we were brain dead. Headed to Cinileisure for late dinner and movie, Step brothers. It's super corny. Got to work on my EPMS now.

Depress

2008-09-11T01:11:00.003+08:00

My heart sank when my friend asked why do Iain and I want to rush into marriage and what makes me think that I am not a float to Iain. This stroked me real hard.

Later did I know that there are people around us feel that we are too fast to get married, commenting that I'm a control freak, I'm the third party that causes Iain and his ex to broke off. As a matter of fact, I'm NOT THIRD PARTY. I got together with Iain after he broke off with his ex and mine. We were then single and fall in love. And, I'm not a CONTROL freak! I didn't hold a AK74 and pointed at Iain's forehead to have him proposed to me. We just feel that we are the right one for one another and we look forward for union.

Iain and I always discuss things and talk things out. I can never hide my emotions from him. For instance, he knew that I was depressed when he called me earlier. Immediately, he rush down from his camp to St. Micheal to fetch me and talk to me. I was impressed by his discerns without me telling him anything, he already knew what I'm facing through. I almost cried out when I told him what had happened and others' comments and perceptions.

Maybe I was overly paranoid and feared that this marriage will not work out. After hearing what he said, I felt so much better. As regards to the issue of being a float, Iain commented he could simply date me as a girl friend and why would he bother to propose to me and tell the whole world that we are getting married.

Maybe I should heed his mummy's advice, just ignored what others say about you. As long as you love each other truly, who cares. What mattered most is our conscience is clear.

Grandma's 87th birthday celebration

2008-09-08T18:15:00.005+08:00

Spent my day with Iain yesterday running around town, getting our errands done. It was a fruitful day and we managed to bring Ginger to Bishan Park to play.

We sent his cousin back home and headed straight to church. We were very late for church but manage to grab a seat. Thankfully, We got the front row which everyone dies to get it. It was such a coincidence to meet Crispen, my poly friend there too. Ha ha... he was forced to give up the seats for us lol. I'm glad that Iain is now not only my husband to be but also my spiritual baby. Pray that he will grow in the Lord and serve in the church.

After church, Iain went for tuition while I waited for him at Novena square. Spent my afternoon doing lesson plan and shopped around. Dear dear is so sweet, he bought mooncakes for my family. Drool... DOUBLE EGG YOLK k. Went to Far East Flora to get a bouquet of flowers for mama. It's a good buy with lots of varieties of flowers which costs only 20 bucks!

We managed to rush home to send our baby Ginger to Bishan Park and I finally met Shufen's dog-Jojo. As I have to prepare for mooncakes for my future mummy-in-law, Iain had to leave Ginger in Felicia's care while we make a move down back home only to realise that Mummy is almost done with the mooncakes and refused to let clumsy me into her precious kitchen. However, mummy is really nice to have prepared the mooncakes on my behalf. That gave me the time to take a quick shower and then head back to Bishan Park to attend to Ginger.

When we arrived at Bishan, poor Ginger was frantically looking around for us. He was all wet and muddy from all that playing and got really excited upon seeing us. He jumped on me and landed his big and muddy paws on my clothes. Puzzled by his unusually affectionate behaviour, it all kind of made sense when Felicia and Shufen told us what had happened during our absence. Apparently, there were two horny gay doggies who has been bugging Ginger constantly. They kept harassing and trying to jump on my poor darling. Ginger tried to resist their advances by sticking very close to us, but to no avail. Trying to separate them is an uphill task as the owner of the Samoyed is doing absolutely nothing to curb her doggy's raging hormones. All she did is just making a feeble effort to scold him and then continuing with her multi-million phone call with her pal. Anyway, we brought Ginger back home shortly after and gave him a nice bath. He felt much better at home and was pretty much back to his normal self in no time.

After bathing our baby Ginger, we headed down to Bedok to my uncle's house to meet up with my relatives to celebrate mama's 87th birthday. Sad to say that yeye's memory power is failing and started to be senile. We had a great commotion before heading down to the restaurant. All went well and we had a sumptuous dinner. It was a remarkable day for Iain and I as it was our first family dinner and birthday celebration that we attended as an item. I'm glad that everyone loves Iain espeacially my cousins, who are willing to communicate with him. Seems like Iain is not only an auntie killer but also 小孩 killer. Ho ho......

After dinner, we rushed down to Sommerville to fetch his mummy. Mummy went JB shopping with God ma and bought lots of stuffs back. Mummy bought mooncakes for my family, so sweet and thoughful of her. I'm so bless to have such sweet and darling mother in law. Hee hee...... Drove back home and stay over at their place for the very first time to do lesson plan. Mummy is so caring and woke up super early to prepare breakfast for us. Aww...... feel so loved by mummy and dear dear!

Blissily busy

2008-09-06T11:25:00.010+08:00

For the past week, Iain and I were busy with marking exam scripts, preparing for our ROM, meeting parents. I'm glad that we fully utilised our one week break to get things done.

Iain suggested that I should record the dates and things that we have accomplished. It's kinda of tough as we are so busy with work and preparation. I shall try my best to recall the important dates.

Some where in mid-late July.

Iain invited me to join Huiping, Jumari, King Yang and him for dinner after school. At the point of time, we were neutral towards to each other. Our relationship is just purely colleauges and nothing much. It was such an coincidence, we happend to bump into Liana that day as Iain and I went to his car to take his phone. Briefly intro Na to Iain.

1 August 2008

Iain invited me to join Kumar, Kamaliah for movie. We went to watch Mummy 3 at "The Cathay". Hang out with Iain after the movie till 4am, chatting at a cafe off Selegie Road. It was a light hearted moment chatting with him and our friendship has move to another level up.

8 August 2008
Su Xuan, Lava, Kumar, Iain and I headed down to "The Arena" to club. Kumar never fails to tease Iain and I, trying hard to match us up. At the point of time, I can sense that Iain is somehow a little interested in me, nevertheless, I brushed it off. Iain invited to me meet his dog, Ginger at Sentosa.

9 August 2008
Meet up with Iain and Ginger at Sentosa and had a great time playing them in the late afternoon. Iain suggested to have a marking session since it was a long weekend and we both work well at night. After dinner, meet up with Iain to do marking at Mac till 5a.m. *if I didn't remember wrongly*

10 August 2008
We meet up again to do marking at airport. This time round, we ended early and finished marking till 2a.m.

12 August 2008
Iain suggested to have chilled out session after I broke clean with XH. We headed to Holland Village for Coffee club. We started to have heartfelt chat and he express his feelings to me! I was stubbed at that moment, not knowing how to react. The warmth of Iain's grip just melted my heart. We drove back home and I started to 'interrogate' him and confessed that I'm kinda of interested in him and think that it's possible to progress further.

14 August 2008
I invited Iain to drop by my house to visit my cats and my mum. Mummy likes him at first sight and started to question me about us. Dad was excited but kinda of worried as he just saw him through a glance from his car.

16 August 2008
Iain invited me back to his house to meet his family. His mum and dad are such a darling! Nice and sweet folks. His sisters are so nice to me especially his eldest sis. We went to Dempsey Road for a chilled out and had wine at 'Wine Network'.

17 August 2008 around 2.30a.m
We drove to Mt. Faber and Iain propose to me in his car! Without hesitation, I agreed! It's kinda of crazy but there's a strong feeling which I can't beat off-We are meant to be and we foreseen that this marriage is gonna to work out. I can vividly remember his proposal line: Sandra, I know that you're the one for me and I really want to spend the rest of my life with you. Will you marry me? FYI, he didn't prepared flowers nor proposal ring but he got something which is the most important-sincerity.

Late afternoon......
We went to Bishan to shop for wedding bands at Citi gems. We had a big issue upon buying the rings but managed to resolve it. I was surprised by my own reaction as I would have called off the whole engagement and walked off in the past. I guess that Iain has changed me in certain ways especially on reasoning rationale and being more understanding.

23 August 2008 collection of rings
This was the day that Iain collected the ring and we were supposed to go out. We were so beat after a long day of CCA and marking. and headed home to rest. I've tried calling him for hours but didn't manage to get through. Feeling tired, I went to back to sleep. In the midst of my beauty sleep, the door bell rang and I saw Iain holding a bouquet of blue roses. I was shocked and hoping that he's not going to put on the ring for me now as I was in my pyjamas. Well, he did!! My hair was all over me and my mouth stink with just out of bed breathe! How glamorous and how could I ever forget! Ha ha......

24 August 2008 pouring of blessing
Visitation to grandma and grandpa. Both were happy with Iain and Mama was smiling non stop upon seeing Iain. I know that she likes him when I saw the looks on her face. Thank God that she did not ask me dumped Iain like the last relationship. Phew...... Thank God that dear dear manage to pass Mama's test. Iain and I bought Yi Quan, mum and bro to 'Earth Cafe' with Ginger for dinner. Mummy saw the wedding band on our hand and gave me a cheeky look.

Mummy cracked a joke and said "So, what kind of stone of that? Crystal or gems?" Felt offended, I retorted "What?! It's diamond, ok! Iain bought it with his hard earn money." Mummy smiled cheeky and ask why I wore the ring on my left hand fourth finger. Iain and I smiled sheepishly. we gazed at each other and decided to tell my mum that we were engaged. Mum was happy and couldn't help smiling. Iain promised mummy that he will take good care of me and want to make me happy. Mummy looked at me ask "Girl, you ok?" I nodded my head.

"Since you're ok, I'm ok. As long as you're happy." Mummy smiled. Finally, we got blessing from my mum. Called up dad to announce this news to him as he was in overseas. He render speechless and was happy for us.

Went back to Iain's house and told his parents about our engagement. They were very happy and shocked. I will never forget what his mum said to me. "So fast! As long as both of you love each other wholeheartedly, I'm happy. Most importantly, don't bother about what other said as long as both of you are true to each other. " I almost cried out when I heard this. I'm wonderfully blessed to have such a liberal and understanding mother in law.

29 August 2008-Announcement day
This is our very year to celebrate Teachers' Day together. Iain and I have been caution not wanting to let others know about our relationship. After the Teachers' Day dinner, we headed down to 'The Arena' with Kelly, Churu, King Yang, Kumar, Su Xuan, Ivory and Jumari. Churu and Kelly kinda of suspected that Iain was interested in me and started to question Ivory whether I had a boyfriend. Knowing that we were dating together and not wanting too many people to know about it. Ivory gave a political right answer, 'Yes". Iain and I headed to the dance floor and were dancing intimately. Just at the moment, I finished kissing Iain, my eyes caught King Yang. He was totally disgusted, whispered to Kelly and walk out off. Kumar and Su Xuan shook their head as a sign, it's too late with the typical look -You got to tell them the truth! Left with no alternatively, we announced to the gang that we were engaged and there was a moment of silence. Everyone was shocked! We loved to see that expressions! Anyway, they were happy for us!

31 August 2008
Parents meeting day! Both our parents meet up for breakfast. Mind you, Iain's mum and my mum are like long lost friends! I guessed that they have common topics to chat since they used to live in the same area and my grandma used to patronise Iain's grandpa TMC. Iain and I were glad that everything went smoothly.

2 September 2008
Check out the ROM-Mandai Orchid Garden. Our very first bible study with Victor.

3 Septemeber 2008
Bought my ROM gown at Marina Square and meet up with Zhiyi at AMK hub.

5 September 2008
Mrs Ho caught hold of me and asked how was things between Iain and me. She long noticed that Iain was interested in me and constanly encouraged me to hold on dear to him. In fact, she was the first person who noticed it in the office. Mrs Ho told me that she has been praying for us, hoping that we will be together. During lunch time, we decided to come clean with Mrs Ho and told her that we were engaged. She was so happy and praised the Lord for answering 3/4 of her prayer. We managed to found out that remaining 1/4 of her prayer was for us to get married and have children and live happily. We told her that we wanted her husband to solemnised our civil wedding on 4th July 2009. Mrs Ho was happy and so trilled! We are glad that we have blessing from Mrs Ho as she's a pastor's wife. Nothing beats blessing from spiritual elders in church.

I'm falling in love with you!

2008-08-21T01:18:00.002+08:00

I simply can't believe the pace that Iain and I are in. Everything happend so fast but deep now in our hearts we know that it's not the matter of time, it's the depth of our love. I'm so excited and looking forward to the upcoming CNY. We planned to tell our parents of our engagment plan and ROM in coming June.

I know that it's kind of fast and somehow, I do feel insecure, fearing that it might end fast. Iain's assurance just keep me going and believing in him. Since the day, we fell in love, we both know that we are meant to be and see each other as our lifelong partner. The feeling is very different from my past relationships. There is a sense of certainty that we knew we are the one.

In fact, most of our friends are shock to hear that we got engaged after dating for 5 days and we even bought our wedding bands. When Iain popped the question, I didn't even hesitate a bit and said,"OMG! Yes, I do!" Thank God for sending people as confirmation which is encouraging and uplifting.

Goodbye and hello

2008-08-13T00:54:00.003+08:00

Goodbye to old self and hello to new life!

12 Aug 2008 embarked an marking in my life. This is the very day that xh and I had officially stop seeing/contacting each other for good. For months, we have been dragging our unfruitful relationship. We were seeing each other even though we have broke up, which everyone reckons it as super duper unhealthy.

This day is also a very special day for me. It's a 'first time thing' day for me. It's a memorable day which I will never forget. Tml I hope that I will end school early and go to brow house to trim my eyebrows. Aim to leave school at 430 after remedial class. Ke ke......

Motivation

2008-08-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

For the past two months, I have been dragging my feet to work everyday. Initally, it was Michelle's encouragement that pushes me. After she had left, I was having a hard time to motivate myself to go to work. Well, from now on, I have something to look forward to whenever I go to work. I hope that this motivation will last forever. :P

I'm so glad that Iain has been so friendly and make me feel welcome at work. He's the first person who asked me to join other colleagues for dinner, movies, clubbing and asking me out to Sentosa with Ginger. I really appreciate his initative and warmth which makes me feel at ease whenever I hang out with my other colleagues. I appreciate his up front and up lifting words that really make my day. So bless to have him around! :)

Ginger boy

2008-08-10T17:19:00.005+08:00

Went to Sentosa with Iain and his dog, Ginger yesterday. Ginger is such a darling Golden Retriever. I simply fell in love with him at first sight! *blink* He's a gorgeous babe and so manja!Ooooh... I'm so glad that Iain invited me to accompany them to Sentosa on every Sat! Hee hee... Now, I have a weekend lover-Ginger! How I wish I could bring him home with me! Iain, if you ever lost Ginger, come to my house to look for him ya... lol.

Snowball was so jealous and angry when I reached home. Initially, he was so happy to see me and started to purr. He stop immediately when he sniffed Ginger's scent. He refused to sleep with me and ignored me totally till now. Hump... petty fellow.

I was amazed that I've managed to clear at least half of my marking at Mac last night till this morning. I even had my breakfast at Mac! It's an unbelievable progress that I have manage to clear my work. I was so tired and didn't have much appetite. I'm so bless to have my friend accompanied me throughout the whole night to do marking!

Once again, I shall burn midnight oil to continue marking...... Aja aja fighting, Sandra!

Update

2008-08-03T16:26:00.002+08:00

Two months has past by and last Friday was Michelle's last day in my school. I'm gonna to miss her! I'm happy that she can further her studies and pursued her Degree in Education. 3 cheers for you, Michi.

I've lost my voice completely due to overstrain of my vocal. I really hate to bring my kids out for P.E. lesson. It's a total chaos. Last Friday was a "kung fu showdown" during P.E lesson. Khalid sat in the middle of parade square and meditate while I was giving instructions. The class giggled and pointed him to me. After much screaming and reprimanding, he replied,"Ms Lok, I'm praying and searching for inner peace." I was render speechless! Inner peace!!!!! Gosh, at such tender age of 8! I was thinking to myself that I would have inner peace if he know how to behave himself well in class and stop seeking attention in class. Ha ha.. I wish I could attain inner peace too! Jamie and Inzaghi had a "kungfu showdown" with Shilin and Khalid. Shania, Aqidah and Syhirah had a "friend me, friend me not" politics showdown. Apparently, out of the 1 hour PE lesson, I spent 30 mins on "saliva showdown" and there goes my sweet voice and here comes my sexy husky voice.

Went to St James with James and his girlfriend, Calvin, Thomas, Don, Kee Yang, Esteer, Winnie and Joanne last night. None of us has aniticipated that Joanne's ex would be there too! Really suai sia. Joanne quickly ran out of Movida and we were running like wild dogs after her. Poor Jo, she was so badly hurt by him. We managed to visit all the outlets in St. James without paying! Yeah!!! It was so cool and fun! Anyway, Powerhouse service suck! The bouncers did not pour milk into our Flaming Lamborghini and splash water at Esteer and me without apologising. Furthermore, the bouncer took more than 10 minute to light up our drink! Utterly disgusted by their service! Word of advice: NEVER go to the counter at the dance floor. Disappointed, we left the place and headed to "The Boiler Room". We had a great deal of fun with the singers and entertainers. I was amazed by the male singer, Tiny, who sang "Endless love" all by himself, including the female parts too! He's a joker and I'm amazed by his voice. Power!

Love

2008-07-13T15:03:00.003+08:00

For the past few weeks I'm totally drained out by the kids and the huemengous workload. I'm spiritually dry and physically tormented by the flu virus. It's been 2 bloody weeks and I've yet to recover. Even my P pointed it out to me and ask me to lots of water and honey lemon. I've not been attending service and cell groups for weeks and I realised that my spiritual life started to dry up. I need to do something about it.

Many have been telling me that what I'm going through is a path that God wants me to go through to get me prepare for greater things. Similarly, Daniel and his friends had to go through burning alive in fire and being thrown into the lion den. God always deliver him through all these trials and Daniel became a stronger person who was valued by the Kings.

At times, I feel that no matter how hard I tried, things doesn't seems to be working out fine. I have telling myself that I need keep cool at all times and never throw my temper at my poor kids. No matter how hard I tried, there's bound to be a few kids trying to hard to push the button.

Earlier on, I was having my quiet time and God spoke to me-LOVE. Love your students just as you love me. I was stunned and really wonder how to love these kids. I have no attachement to them as they are always creating troubles for me. FYI, my level manager told me that I'm the record holder among my colleagues. The numbers of green forms that I've filled for the past three weeks is more than his three years teaching in the school. How am I going to love my kids and how am I going to fill up their emotion tanks. Each of them are individual and have their own needs. It's simply too diversive to fill up the 5 languages of love. I must think of a solution, I really need to think of a way out. It would be pointless by scolding and disciplining my kids, when they don't feel my sincerity and love.

Just like what Yvonne said, "when you love God, you will be committed to Him. Likewise, when you love your students, you will be committed to them."

I guess my lesson on Earth is learn how to love because life is all about love and God is love.

Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."
Matthew 22:37-40 NLT

Two weeks

2008-07-05T00:59:00.004+08:00

Transition has been taking place in my life for the past two weeks. For the past two weeks, frustration, disappointment, anguish, weariness had overwhelmed my life. I was exhausted and aggravated by my class uncooperativeness, bad behaviour and attitude. These group of students are totally different from St. Nic girls. Maybe my expectations for these kids are too high or maybe I'm too stern with them.

I personally feel that this class is seriously lack of discipline and ill mannered. Children never raise their hands before sharing. They always bicker in class over minor things and fought in class. Within two weeks, I have written 3 behaviour reports and 1 incident reports. The class monitoress is forever blur and not discern at all, she doesn't even bother to ask the class to greet the teacher till I pointed it out. I'm observing her reactions and felt that there's room for improvement.

I'm glad that I've went to Pastor Mike Corner conference for teachers. Peina and I managed to catch the words from God and it acts to a confirmation to our calling. Hopefully, we are able to change our environment in our classroom, especially our children's behaviour. I'm so bless by the word of God today. School is not just a place but rather a ministry. I have to change my mindset and not be blinded by things which I see. Take initative and shine for Christ.

First week of work

2008-06-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

23 June 2008 is the embark of my first full pledge teaching, which also means that I'm on the full swing. No longer a trainee nor a student.

For the past 4 days, I have been attending Induction Programs and Contact Time. I'm still struggling to stay abreast to adapt the school culture, administrative and work load. Being a "spoilt brat", I'm always pampered by my friends around me who constantly remind me deadlines. Now, these privileges are no longer available for me. As a matter of fact, I reckon, it's a good sign-independence.

I'm thankful to have Ariel as my supervisor and mentor. She's always avail herself to me whenever I need her. Her constant encouragements and motivations are pushing me to another level.

Feeling so tired and sleepy now. It's time for me to stop blogging as I have yet to prepare my lesson tomorrow.

Happy Birthday

2008-06-21T13:10:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to Yeye, 3rd Uncle and Weichong. Looking forwards to tonight chalet and birthday party at Weichong house at 1.30pm. Ah girl is so sweet to put in effort to organise a party for Weichong. Just hope that both of them will grow up fast and study hard.

Monday...... Sigh....... Keep my fingers cross, official 1st day of my teaching career. Woosh, Jia you, Sandra! Officially fulfilling God's mighty calling! Hallelujah!

Feel so proud of Adrian ge ge that he's serving in children church today. Way to go, bro! Jia you! PTL.

Boring day

2008-06-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching "Fated to love you", I can't wait for the last episode. Huiru and I are super addicated to it.

Had a short induction program with Ariel and Serene today. Ariel has high expectation from us. Michelle and I started to feel stress. Tomorrow, we'll be going back to observe her Math lesson. Went to collect my laminator back from service center today. Guess what?! I spoilt it again. Ha ha...... Can't believe it! Anyway, I've manage to fix it, it's as good as new! Phew, Thank God.

Death

2008-06-11T12:19:00.004+08:00

This morning, I was lazing on my bed when my mobile phone rang. I pick it up and read the sms. I was shocked after reading it. Jessica's dad had passed away this morning. He was struggling with liver cancer. My heart sank as I read the sms. I called Jessica to comfort her. I started to worry for yeye when Jessica said that her dad had similar symptoms as yeye. Constant fever and then liver cancer. Sigh...... Lord, please let a mircale to happend!

My wound is recovering fast and good! PTL... hee hee. Had my stitches removed on Monday, and the nurse accidentally snipped off part of my skin. I was fuming mad and in pain. Anyway, the bleeding stopped on Tuesday.Thanks for your constant prayers! Ha ha... I'll hit back to the gym next month to work out all the fat that I've accumlated in this holidays! Now, I've one more khaki to join me for work out! Woo hoo... Janice, you BETTER go with me ya. No excuses lor!!! We must slim down before your wedding day.

I'm so hooked to prawn fishing now! All thanks to Jazz, Juztin and Brandon. It's supper addictive and fun! I was so excited to catch my first catch of the day last night within 5 mins. Then, it started to drizzle, followed by raining cats and dogs! My spirit was dampened. I pack up and went home. Sigh......

半情歌

2008-06-10T11:13:00.005+08:00

花接受凋零風接受追尋

心的傷還有一些不要緊

我接受你的決定

你將會被誰抱緊唱什麼歌哄他開心

我想著天空什麼時候會放晴

地球不曾為誰停一停

你的明天有多快樂不是我的

(我的明天快不快樂都是我的)

我們的愛是唱一半的歌

時間把習慣換了傷口愈合

也撤銷我再想你的資格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人殘念的總是未完成的

我只能唱著一半的歌

(另一半的歌)

Be Mercy, Lord

2008-06-09T13:39:00.003+08:00

Lord, I thank You for answering my prayers. I thank You for Your blessing upon my family. For years, You are faithful and have blessed my grandparents with longevity. Thank You, O Lord.

Lord, I pray that You could be mercy and heal Ye ye in the name of Jesus. Do not let him suffer and I believe that there will be a mircale. I bind the cancer cells in his body in the name of Jesus. Lord, I pray that you could heal him wholly, do not let him suffer in pain. I pray for wisdom upon the doctors that they will be anointed with the holy spirit. They will know how to handle the situation well and the cancer test result will be negative. I pray that Lord, You could heal him.

Amen!

Thank You

2008-06-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

A big thank you to Huiru and Jason for making arrangements to go JB with me. Thanks for bringing me there. Hee hee... I've managed to grab a stationeries, hair accessories and sweat pants.

Thanks for making me happy on this very sad day. Whenever I'm down, Huiru and Jason will always be there for me. Cheering me up and trying their best to help me to forget those unhappy incidents. I'm so glad to have them with me today.

Thank you!

我的快乐 - 锦绣二重唱

2008-06-07T14:37:00.004+08:00

排了徊了走了　錯了哭了痛了

累了倦了困了　煩了亂了冷了　都是真的

瘋的想的念的　不安的焦慮的

複雜的夢過的　擁有的失去的　怎麼忘呢

你坐過的沙發寬了你愛的音樂停了　我等著你等成了擺設

我的你的他的　好的壞的難的

灰的藍的黃的　酸的甜的苦的　都還記得

非常想要忘的　絕對不能忘的

我心要還你了　真的不行要了　只得放了

環島的火車載著我第幾天了　忽然發現這一刻我不想你了

我的快樂　會回來的

只要清楚曾愛得那麼深刻　不準問值不值得

我的快樂　會回來的　離開不是誰(你)給了誰的選擇

瘋的想的念的　不安的焦慮的

復雜的夢過的　擁有的失去的　怎麼忘呢

非常想要忘的　絕對不能忘的

我心要還你了　真的不行要了　只得放了

放了　忘了

Emotion Tank

2008-06-05T19:34:00.002+08:00

After chatting with Cherlin at subway, I have to agree with her that i'm overfilled with negative emotion. I need to empty out all my burdens and uplift it to God. I've been bottling up my feelings and thoughts to myself, suffering all alone.

Maybe it's time to let go and let God into my life.

Holiday plans

2008-06-04T00:40:00.004+08:00

I desperately need a holiday therapy!

Holiday plans

Nov/Dec 2008 = Korea trip with family. Main itinerary: skiing

June 2009 = Taiwan shopping trip with Huiru

Dec 2009 = Korea trip with Rachel to visit her family.

Just plans, actions? We'll see how much I saved.

Baby Nataniel

2008-06-02T11:31:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was baby Nataniel 1st month celebration. Na, Fazli and me visited him. Oh my, he's so cute! Eurasian babies look so lovely! FYI, Meiling is a Chinese and her hubby, Dominki is a Polish British. Ooooh... so cute. How I wish my husband is a Caucasian and our end product will be like Nataniel. Ha ha... dream on.

Fazli and I discovered the motherly side of Na. She's so good at handling young baby. Nat slept soundly in her arms and refused to wake up, no matter how hard Fazli and I tried to disturb him. Dominki's mum suggested to put him on his own bed to wake up him as baby Nat hates his own bed. I would say that he's a weird baby, disliking his bed. Ha ha...

True enough, he started to cry and Dominki, couldn't bear to see his little precious to suffer and quickly cuddled him. Awww......

Meet up with Stephen for dinner and headed to book fair at Suntec. He brought me to a Christian book store and I was in awe by the amount of books they carried. They have a wide range of books-bibical theology research books, scholar researches, light reading, bibles (all sorts of versions) and many famous writers. I have learnt so many things from Stephen last night on theology. Different schools of thoughts on certain church issues and how to work out the differences. Ulitmately, we are still serving the Ministry of God.

What is life?

2008-06-01T03:01:00.003+08:00

Just reached home after having supper with Zhiyi. It's been a while since we catch up with one another. Had a great time talking and sharing our ideology of life.

Some times, I really wonder what life is. What is the true meaning of life? Do I have to follow the typical mediocre lifestyle-graduate, work, fall in love, marriage, have a couple of kids, work like hell, retire, take care of grandchildren and finally, rest in a box. Is this what I really want?

Acrostic Poem

2008-05-30T10:33:00.002+08:00

Today, I was clearing up some of my stuffs and I came across this poem which was written by my St nic students to me.

This is acrostic poem is written by 2 Primary 5 girls, Brenda Lee and Beatrice Tan. Acrostic peom is to use key word and write it down vertically. Creating lines of poetry, each one beginning with a letter of the word(s).

Miss Lok
Is a trainee teacher
She has a lot of friends.
Singapore, America, Australia......

Lately, she went to watch Maroon 5 concert
Other than that, maybe she wants to watch the Hillsong concert
Known as Miss Sandra, She always gets bullied by us.

Thank God!

2008-05-29T17:22:00.005+08:00

Thank God for deliver me through the minor surgery and bless me with an experience doctor. The surgery was a success and I will be fine in no time. Thank you N139 for praying for me.

Initially, Dr. Collin Tan plan for a laser surgery. However, there was a change in plan as he realised that my cyst on my thigh did not had a stalk. We have no alternative but to use the tradition excision method. Everything went smoothly and I managed to catch glimsp of Dr. Tan stitching my wound.

Thank God!

First day of work

2008-05-27T00:08:00.004+08:00

Today is my first day of work and I had a long 5 hours of meeting with P, VP and KP. First time in my life, I had to attend such a long meeting.

Anyway, I've got my form class--primary 2!!! Thank God that it's lower primary whereby I can interact with the little cute ones. Well, I'm getting ready for the challenges in the near future. Keeping my fingers cross that I'm able to meet the top management expectations. I need to brush up my Science and English. From this day onwards, I need to be extra conscious on the way I speak and write esp my grammar. I tend to commit grammar errors when I get excited in conservation and also in writing. Need to train myself to do self vetting and editing for my work since I'm majoring in EL.

Ps: Today is my 2nd time to watch Indiana Jones! You will never be sicked of it!

1:1 training session

2008-05-20T23:47:00.004+08:00

After joining the gym for 2 months, I've decided to go for the free two sessions with the personal trainer. After the two sessions, my trainer, Eric, concluded that I shouldn't run at all. Running is now totally out of my exercise regime. Sad to say that it's due to my knee structure, which nothing can be done at all.

Due to my spinal structure, it's causes my butt to look protruding. This also create a major problem to my spine. It restrained me from doing different exercises and I need to be extra caution for it may lead serious consequences.

I'm such a problematic girl! I'm still considering whether to take up the 25 session of personal training program. Hmmm......

Shopping!

2008-05-15T23:04:00.004+08:00

I just came home from shopping, managed to get a great deal. Hee hee...... All thanks to Zhiyi! Acutally, I have been trying to restrain myself from buying too many things, especially when economy is unstable. However, I still fall into temptation. Ha ha......

I can't lay my hands off the blue ruffles collar shirt. It's so Raoul!Gosh! The shirt costs within my budget, not more than $40.00. Chic ching, I bought it without having 2nd thoughts. Well, if Zhiyi finds it nice, then it must be nice! (She's well known for exquiste dress sense)

After buying the top, I suggested to shop for a matching belt. As we walked past "the little match girl", my eyes widen. They are having sales! $10 for a pants. I simply can't believe my eyes cause I paid $59 for the same pair of pants but different colour, 3 months ago. You could imagine what's my reaction would be. *Beeeeeep beeeep* I cursed.

Anyway, I bought the pants since the identical one was torn due to my carelessness in office. $10, worthy splurged! Bought a white belt for $5. Cheap and good! Bought a bag from NTUC for a dollar! Can't believe it right?! Yes, it's only $1!!! It's good enough for me to put my students' books for classes. Anyway, not worth to buy a good bag to put those kids' books and worksheets. Doubt that they will ever appreciate the efforts that teachers put in for them. Ho ho... *Evil*

Total spending: $39.90+$10.00+$5.00+$1.00=55.90

Worthy splurged!

Since God has bless me with the luxury to own a gym membership, I must be a good steward of God. I shall try my best to go gym at least 3 times a week. I seriously need to slim down. I'm going to hit 50kg! Damn.... having been eating too much! I need to control myself!!!

Hey There Delilah

2008-05-10T14:13:00.002+08:00

This song, Hey There Delilah was delicated to me on my last day in St Nic by my 5 Hope girls. This song is meaningful and speak right into my heart. Here's the song video.

Song lyrics | Hey There Delilah lyrics

Final posting

2008-05-08T23:15:00.005+08:00

10 weeks of practicum has come to an end, another chapter of my life is about to begin. 10 weeks in St. Nic, I've gain so much in term of weight (hee hee), knowledge and managing naughty girls. I'm gonna to miss my days in St. Nic, esp the fried chicken wings! Ha ha...... Gonna to miss Jeanette, Wendy, Li Na, Gomathi, Caris, Fioh and so many people to be named.

Just received my long awaited school posting in the afternoon. I was rendered speechless when I saw the first four letters of the school-W E L L. At that instance, I almost cried out, not because I wanted to go into that school very badly. In fact, it is far away from my house! The school is located at Sembawang while I live in Ang Mo Kio. It may not considered that far as compared to Mooi, my colleague, who stays in Commonwealth, teaches in St Nic. Sign, I can no longer enjoy the luxury of leaving my house at 7am and reaching school at 7.20am. NO MORE CAR RIDE from daddy. Damn, I really need to get my license real soon.

Besides that, I have never been to a neighbourhood primary school before in my whole entire life. I seriously do not know how the culture is like and how those kids behave in class. I really have no clue at all. I know that it sounds a bit dumb but I was in Ai Tong School, SAP School when I was in primary level. And my practicum school is another SAP School, St Nic. I really have no exposure to neighbourhood primary school at all. All the classes that I've attached to are top elites and generally well behaved. I guessed, my biggest nightmare is about to begin.

Thought of it, I think that school really needs teachers cos Michelle is also sent to the same school as me. Hee hee...... Not that bad afterall, I supposed. We went to St Nic for pract and now we are posted to the same school. LoL Hopefully, Nana will either stay in her school or come to my school. Just like what Nana always says, we are always meant to be together no matter where we go.

After talking to Adrian, I feel much better and paced now. I'll hold on to what he said,"If you really want it, you will get it. If you believe it, you will get it. Pray!" I think that's all I could do now.

better in time

2008-05-06T16:48:00.000+08:00

Song lyrics | Better In Time lyrics

Born again

2008-03-31T10:14:00.002+08:00

30 March 2008 was the mark of my birth. Don't be mistaken. It's not my birthday but rather it's my water baptism day. Woo hoo...... I've been struggling for years and decided to be obedient to follow God's will. Therefore, I can now truly proclaim that I'm a Christian, the child of God! Alleluia......

update update update!!!

2008-03-28T21:01:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since I last update my blog. Hmmm..... seems like I always use this opening phrase. Well, anyway, there's thousand and one things to update.

This week was a busy week for me. I'm totally packed with marking books. I've managed to clear some of my Maths workbooks, Preston exercise books, Science Teacher production worksheets, Science self prepared worksheets and mind maps.

Monday-MC.

Tuesday-Went to Maroon 5 concert with Shing. It was awesome! Terrific and almost flawless performance. I simply love Adam. "Get lost bitches, he's mine!" sounded familiar. That's what Angie has been saying for the whole night. Got to know some of Shing's friends-Angie, Mei Lan, Yi Fan, Julian-birthday boy. We attended Julian's 30th birthday after Maroon 5 concert with Yi Fan and Angie. I'm so envy of Angie! She got to interview Maroon 5 for Straits Time Urban. Awwwww........ Check out Urban on every Thursday "Ask Angie" column. Anyway, Julian was super drunk that night. He was super duper hilarious and I can't stop laughing whenever I think of him.

Wednesday-Teach and mark books

Thursday-Teach and mark books

Friday-Fiesta preparation in school. Spent one whole afternoon with my girls for decorating the stall and attended the 24 hour marathon run opening ceremony. Oh yes! Dr. William Tan came today to wheel on St nic field tracks for 24 hours for raising our building fund. A huge thank you to all the guests! Do drop by tomorrow.

Sway

2008-03-14T14:34:00.002+08:00

This is the current song that I'm listening. It's pretty old yet evergreen. It brought back many memories that Winnie and I had shared. Those days at Acid bar. Weeks after weeks, we simply soaked ourselves in Acid bar with Sara and Alvin singing. We never fail to dedicate this song-Sway by Bic Runga. Her name is pronounced as Bec rather than Bic. Bic is Māori Chinese mixed New Zealander.

Alas, I've finished marking

2008-03-13T20:40:00.005+08:00

Alas, I've finished marking! After 4 continuous days of marking, I've managed completed my marking for one class of composition. Now, I finally get what Mrs. Lim meant- take my time and mark it over the one week holidays. Anyway, I'm ecstaticed that I've completed marking! Now, I can focus on my lesson plans. Chiong for lesson planning!

I'll be going to Fittness First with Lina tomorrow. Hopefully that I will be motivated and committed in going to gym at least 3 times a week. I was "suaned" by Winnie for being a goon to pay $125.25 per month instead of $600 per annum at California fittness. It is no doubt that I've missed out a great opportunity. However, considering the fact of accessibilty, Fittness First is much convenient than California fittness.

Miss Hoe Winnie, happy that I've blogged about you in my blog? Ha ha...... don't say that I didn't include you in my blog hor. Somebody is jealous of Mr. Kim because I blogged more about him than her. Ha ha...... Darling hoe, don't be jealous ya. Sayang, sayang......

Sty on my right eye

2008-03-11T21:14:00.001+08:00

Got a sty on my right eye. I looked so ugly and feel terrible.

豆花

2008-03-11T09:23:00.003+08:00

I'm looking forward to have dou hua you tiao with Adrian! Drool......yum yum!!! My pile of composition is still lying on my table. One week holiday is gonna to spend on marking composition. Hope that I won't vomit blood or worse, vomit out my intestines and lungs.

8 weeks

2008-03-09T23:50:00.004+08:00

How exciting! It's already 8 weeks! Yvonne and Victor are so happy over baby. Yvonne just went for ultra sound scan and they can hear baby's heartbeat! Ooohhh... so cool!

Jason had a haircut today. He looked so cute and boyish. I'm smittened by his new look. Ha ha...... He looks more like a Singaporean rather than a Korean now. I simply can't believe that he still wearing his Simon Fraser Uni school tee. I've already dumped my uni tee long time ago. Ha ha......
Well, so disappointed in him today. Sad...... Not going to trust his words again. Tsk tsk tsk......

Back for blogging

2008-03-05T23:07:00.006+08:00

It's been ages since I last blogged and need to update my blog.

Practicum has just started on last Monday and I'm almost half dead now. I'm trying to readjust my lifestyle back to "norm". Sleep early, wake up early but I still end up sleeping at the wee hours. For the past 2 days, I've been rushing my daily lesson plans till 3-4am and woke up at 515am to prepare for school. It's kinda of crazy and hectic. I think I will become a lunatic even before I serve as a full pledged teacher. All my colleagues were amazed that I'm still energetic and frankly speaking, I'm in awe too! Ha ha…… Beats me.

For this final practicum, I’m assigned to teach Primary 5 Maths, English and Primary 3 Science. I’m glad that most of the girls were with me last year are in my current classes now. Yippie! Thank God that those classes that I’ve been assigned to, are one of good classes. Thank God for favour upon people, so far till now, my CTs are very nice and supportive towards me. Praise the Lord.

I’m happy that things are picking up in school and trying to clear my markings as much as possible. I guess, nothing beats marking composition which is the last thing that teachers would want to do. Ha ha……I’m going to start marking them tomorrow. Bless me!

Anyway, I bought a new Samsung U700 mobile phone on last Friday with Liana. Guess what, it’s spoilt today! There isn’t any more vibration even though it’s on vibration mode! Gosh, you could imagine how upset I was. It’s barely a week old and the vibrator components in the phone have malfunction. Pissed! I need to bring it to “hospital” for “diagnosis” and maybe “operation” over the weekends. Arghh…… Jinxed!!!

Congratulation to Dr. Ludwig Tan for his promotion to Assistant Prof! I’m so proud of him and amazed by his determination in obtaining his PHD after going through so many difficulties in life. Salute!

I was so busy and blurred that I actually forgotten one of the most important dates in my life. Dates, dates, dates…… too many to remember. Anyway, Thompson plaza Sakae sushi outlet service sucks! The teppanyaki chef didn’t even bother to cook my Okonomiyaki despite after pressing the service crew for the status of my order for umpteen of times. I waited for 45mins for one pathetic Okonomiyaki and decided to cancel my order. While queuing up for my payment, the service crew and the chef broke out an argument over my Okonomiyaki. He commented that since I’ve cancelled my order and he need not to cook it anymore. It’s over and done with. He then put aside the ingredients and continued to serve one and only one family (in his eyes) who order exquisite and expensive teppanyaki. Shity huh! He leaved me an impression that he doesn’t want to cook my food in the first place! Lousy service.

A letter to my darling

2008-02-21T10:25:00.003+08:00

My dear little darling,

It's been 5 weeks and I wonder how's life for you? It must be wonderful to be living in your mummy's womb. You have to be a good child and be strong. You could imagine how excited we are! You're the long awaited gift from God.

Auntie Sandra is looking forward to see you in 8 months time. Meanwhile, I will keep you in prayer and try not to tired out your mummy. Mummy and daddy are going through transition in their work place.

Baby, Aja aja growing up.

Love,
Aunite Sandra

Kung Fu soccer?

2008-02-20T00:35:00.005+08:00

New Life

2008-02-17T17:22:00.003+08:00

How wonderful our Lord Saviour is.

How gracious our Almighty Lord is

How merciful our Holy Lord is.

All thanks to You, Awesome Lord.

Thanks for blessing us abundantly.

Thank you, Lord.

I'm looking forward to recieve new lives. It's so exciting! More and more babies! I'm feel so bless to be surrounded by these little ones! Alleluia! Life without the little kids aren't colourful.

Chinese New Year Part 2

2008-02-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

This morning, Mum, dad and I went to Pasir Ris Park to check out my uncles, aunt, cousins and bro roller blade lesson progress. Today was their last lesson and we took some pics and videos of them falling downing. Ha ha..... *evil*

We had lunch at East Point Sakae Sushi and headed home to prepare dinner for them. Mama and Yeye came over to our house for dinner. We had a wonderful spread for dinner. Ku ku prepared Chawanmushi, miso soup, salmon king and soba-they are all my fav! So bless!

Here's the pics...

The Loks bladers

From left to right: Xin Quan, my bro-Qiu Quan, 三婶 (third aunt), De Quan, Yi Quan, 三叔 (third uncle)，四叔 (Fourth uncle)

Mummy and Daddy. Mummy look drop dead gorgeous in her sun dress.

My dearest Mama and Yeye

All the grandchildren with Yeye and Mama. Yi Quan and De Quan put on their new Pomelo "hats"

Way back into love

2008-02-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year

2008-02-08T12:52:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese Year! Wah ha ha ha......I'm glad to say that this year "ang bao" is a fruitful collection! Ke ke...... What to do...... plenty of my friends are married and are "legal" to give ang bao. Ha ha...... Thank God that I'm not marry yet, at least for the next few years I still can collect ang bao. Ha ha......

Jason, Rachael and Robin came over to my house for dinner and had a great time. Jason commented that this is his very first homecook meal in year 2008. Glad that they enjoyed the food. Went over to his place to fix his laptop but can't do much for him. We went to West Coast MaC for "sing song talk cock" session. It's a coincidence to see Michelle at Mac with her friends.

Here's the CNY pics.......

From left to right: Robin, Rachael and Jason. My Korean students and friend.

Another Korean girl? Nope...... my little sweet heart niece, Claire in Hanbok

Triston at play.

Gerald and mummy, Grace.

Nothing Last Forever

2008-02-04T12:19:00.000+08:00

Nothing Last Forever
Maroon 5

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness gets us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
Everyday

With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It won't fall down while I'm asleep
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
Everyday

With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
But we have not hit the ground
Doesn't mean we're not still falling, oh..I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame
I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains
Everyday

With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Everyday

With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Dinner with Stephen and Liana

2008-02-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

Today, Na, Stephen and I went to Bedok Camp hawker center for dinner. Only one word to describe the makan sensation, "Shiok!" We spent around $20 per person for dinner and coffee. It was awesome!

Finally, Na can taste the well known Halah fried kway teow, oyster omelette, fried carrot cake, butter calamari rings, satay, bbq sting ray and refreshing ching teng. Yum yum...... our cravings were satisfied! Two thumbs up, wooooh!

After dinner, we headed down to Tampines and had coffee at Coffee Beans-our regular hang out place. As usual, Na and I will order ice blended Belgian Chocolate and Chicago cheese cake. Stephen decided to try something new,ice blended lychee. Take a close look at their facial expression and you will know whether the new flavour drink is nice or not.

Stephen immediate expression after having his very first slip. Erm...... I doubt that he likes the taste.

Hmmm...... Na seems to like it very much.

Ah Yee and Yee Jong commented that I have put on too much weight and I need exercise! Opps! Anyway, I've just started my diet plan-popping fat burner pills and may be joining pilates classes and work out in school gym on every tuesday and friday noon. Aza aza, fighting!

I think should do an entourage of the outings that I had with my friends soon. Guess, it would be memorable. Maybe I should start doing scrap booking, which I think that it's going to be a big investment. Ha ha......

After talking to Stephen, I think I should stop asking JK out from now on. Afterall, I, as a girl, can't always be the one to initiate as there's something known as self respect. No doubt that he's my kind of idea guy- intellectual, gentlemen and most importantly, he's good at decision making. Well, I guess that let things take its natural course.

Shity day

2008-01-31T18:48:00.000+08:00

Everything in my life is in a big mess in terms of love and work. Everything just screwed up. Arghhh...... screwed up my micro teaching, screwed up in my love life...... So what's next?

Over confident

2008-01-26T00:37:00.000+08:00

I just don't get it why some guys are just overly confident of themselves. I'm amazed that he was able to read between the lines of a simple text- Will you be going clubbing or drinking tomorrow? Obviously, it's an closed ended question with a "yes" or "no" answer. In addtion of an inquiry question such as why or provided information of the venue.

He replied "As a driver u mean and so forth...." The first reaction that I had after reading was, "what?!". This guy must be so caught up with his analyst job that he even "analyze" and misinterpret the meaning of such a simple text. Gosh! Man are just so weird!

Hanabi

2008-01-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

Dinner at Hanabi is awesome! It's not really the food but rather the company. I just love the way that Jason eats. Salmon after salmon, we had 10 salmon sushi and 2 mixed platters of sashimi! We had nothing much expect for sushi and sashimi. I think I've overeat and hence, had diarrhea at the end of the day.

After sending Rachael home, we had coffee at Coffee Bean. He popped out the question asking whether I'm trying to see him by asking Rachael out for dinner. I laughed and replied that he was thinking too much. It's rather weird but I really enjoy dinning Japanese food with him. He will always bring up your appetite. I guess that, it's his loves for sashimi. Not many of my friends really enjoy raw food except for Jessica and Shufen.

He was surprised by my knowledge of cars and I made the correct guess about his C-class Kompressor fuel consumption, 9-10 km/litre. Bingo! I really need to work hard on my pronouncation. He can't really figure out what I am saying even though we communicated in English. Gosh! To think that I'm a school teacher. Ha ha...... terrible! Tsk tsk tsk...... He speaks fluent Canadian English and I'm proficency in Singapore English! What an ironic......

We had a good exchange point of views of our beliefs and cultural differences between Singaporean and Koreans. It's an interesting exchange of ideology of lives and relationships. An interesting fact that I've learned today that matching making in Korea is like an interview. Each person will prepare a resume of their family backgrounds and their personal profiles. It includes your parents education level, previous jobs and your personal background too. You have to state your finanical stautes, education level, jobs postition and personal details. Ultimately, you can choose to match make with the person if you're please with his/her resume. Sad but that how it works. Realistic of life...... I'm glad that I'm borned in Singapore! Phew......

New Cefiro 2.3

2008-01-23T17:41:00.000+08:00

Daddy just change his old Nissan Cefiro to a bigger capacity, 2.3 cc, Cefiro. New year, new car, new aim for me. Ha ha....... Motivated to get a car license! Full speed ahead! Woo hoo......

Korean Dinner

2008-01-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

Just reached home after work. I'm totally beat! Rachael commented that I looked sick and tired. Indeed, I could barely opened my lubricate deprived eyes. I need plenty of rest!

Rachael's mum prepared a sumptuous spread for dinner tonight! Yummy...... We had Korean BBQ pork, 3 different types of Kimchi, salad, Miso soup. I love the Miso soup! It tasted awesome! The bean paste was fermented by Rachael's grandma (할머니 hal muh ni ) and was brought all the way from Korea. I miss 할머니's squid kimchi! Droool...... Too bad, Jason has to work O.T. today and was unable to join us for dinner.

Uncle Daniel (아저씨 ajussi-uncle) is taking over Rachael's current apartment soon. His wife is going to give birth in late May. He is looking for Chinese tutor to teach him conversational Chinese. Ha ha...... keep joking that he's single (only in Singapore) LoL...

Jason, Rachael and I have just set a date for dinning at Hanabi. Wooo yeah! Hopefully that the shop owner won't chase us out! Ha ha.... The amount of salmon sashimi that Jason consumed was humongous! Back in Canada, he and his 2 other uni friends had 200 over pieces of salmon sushi at the buffet restuarant. Hanabi, get ready to show hand all your salmon sashimi to us! Muahahahaha......

From this friday onwards, Shirleen, Aida and I have decided to workout at the gym during our long hours break on tue and friday. Yeah....... finally, found gym khaki in school. 我要减肥! Aja Aja Fighting!

Skin Peeling Session 2

2008-01-21T23:11:00.001+08:00

I had my 2nd skin peeling session together with mummy. Mummy took up a skin peeling course and had special discounted price from Dr Looi! Not fair!!! All thanks to me, mummy got an attractive package! I'm so jealous!!! *hump*

This session was much more intensive compared to the previous one. I was "screaming" for termination of treatment as I could no longer take it anymore. The burning sensation was unbearable.

Silly Dr Looi forget to apply the TCA on my neck and now I have two different skin tone! My face is super white and the neck is tanned! Diao~~~~ Anyway, he has promised to make it up for the next session. Ha ha.......

Another round of spring clean

2008-01-20T14:15:00.000+08:00

It's seems like I'm always spring cleaning my room. Ha ha...
The festive aura is omnipresence every where I go. Mum has been nagging me (basically, daily) to clean up my room. I feel good when I start throwing my old stuffs. There simply too many books and my book shelf is going to give way anytime! Probably, it's time to custom-made a nice steady book shelf.

The book shelf is now dust-free and neat!!! Books are neatly catogorised. Ghee ghee......

Won't Go Home Without You

2008-01-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

I'm so hooked with this song by Maroon 5-Won't go home without you.
Sometimes, men just have to learn things in the hard ways.

http://tt78.com/player/4135/165668.htm

I asked her to stay
But she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend
The things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away
Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
The taste of her breath, I'll never get over
And the noises that she made kept me awake
Oooh
The weight of things that remain unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday
Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
Oooh
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
Oooh
Of all the things
I felt I've never really showed
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
Should not ever let you go, oh oh oh
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
Oooh
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you

Spring cleaning

2008-01-19T10:19:00.000+08:00

Gosh, I really need to clean up my room! It's in total mess or rather a pig sty. I still remember what Jason commented when he popped by my house with Rachael--that I need to clean up my room and it would look fabulous. *blush*

Back in hall days, I was so particular about cleanliness, constantly, keeping it clean and tidy. I would sweep the floor everyday, ensuring that all my things are placed in the original position, no shoes in the room, first on to do list was to make the bed. There's always working space on my table.

Nowadays, back home, I simply can't be bothered. I would just dropped my bag anywhere once I reached home, books on the floor, papers and notes are piled in every corner. I would not bother to make my bed, dumping my worn accessories all over the place and just continue living in my room. One thing that I'm proud of was that I finally got my stationeries neatly organized this week. Ho ho

Look at the amount of pens I have!

It's a box of Post it Pads! I doubt that I can finish it in one life time!

Finally, this drawer is neat! Organized, is the only word I could use! hee hee......

This box is really handy and all my things are neatly packed! Good buy!

Back for Good

2008-01-19T01:58:00.002+08:00

I'm back for good. Just change my blog skin today. It looked so much better and simpler than the previous skin. I just love the colour combination.

Got these little thank you post it notes from Cell Gp. It's always good to encourage and appreciate one another, keep us going in our spirtual walk. I'm so touched by their words and love.

Notes from friends......

From Yvonne

Dear Dra,

You're always like a sister to me... Thank you for not giving up in God in trying times. I am so encouraged to see you grow in Him and love for people. Life will be different without you! Love you so much! You're always dear in my heart.

From Shing

Dearest Sandra,

Thank you for your love, faithfulness and commitment to this cell. They are an encouragement to me!

From Mien

Thanks for being such an encourager. I must say you are strong.. even in times of swims. You always flash your beautiful smile.

From Ida

Sandra, stay creative, sweet, joyous, friendly and lovely.

From Jenny

Thank God for your encourages... Thanks for accepting me for who I am...... Thanks for tolerance.

From Yong Fee

Thank you for always being so joyful! Your smile brighten our day!

From Wenxiang

Yo teacher,

so glab to see you grow so much. Be blessed. Be happy. Be more than you can be.

From Sandy

Hi Sandra,

You are a wonderful sister. I like to send the MSN wink and nudges.

Back

2008-01-12T23:44:00.001+08:00

I'm back, using my very own blog. Will update it soon.

Work

2006-05-18T23:30:00.001+08:00

I need to get a good rest desperately. God, bless me with more sleeping time PLEASE!!!

This morning, I woke up at 4.30am and get ready for work. Anil suggested meeting at the security check point at 6am. Guess what, no cab drivers want to drive me to Singapore Zoo and gave excuses such as changing shift. I wonder do they have better excuses than changing shift. The one and only solution is to dial for cab. Btw, the cab fare is freaking expensive.

We started to take the animals and set off to the school for “Zoo Goes to School” programs. As usual, the kids were very excited and asked the same questions over millions of times such as “Oh, are the specimens real or fake one huh? It looks fake hor.” By the end of the talk, Anil and I were too tired to talk to one another.

Anil has discovered that one of our sugar gliders has given birth and I managed to catch a glimpse of it. It is soooooo cute!!! The babies are resting in her pouch with their tails out of it. Aww......sweet!

Yeah

2006-05-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Finally, exams are over!!! Hooray!

A new chapter of my life has begin......

Going to work in Zoo on Tuesday. Thank God! Need not to wear formal wear just t-shirt , jeans and sneakers. Mel are u envy of me?? LOL... Ke ke.. Hope that I help out in giving lesson to the children and also in the camps. Isn't it great to be pay while you're sleeping overnight in Zoo to oversee the camps.

Hmmm... I'm kinda of anticipating that I'll gain weight while working in the Zoo. 8.30am start work, 10am tea break, 12.15pm lunch, 3.00pm tea break,6.30 end work, reach around 7.30pm dinner. Well it's time for self discipline to control my diet now. Somebody is complaining that I've gain weight and threaten to dump me if I've grow fat. >_<''

one more day

2006-05-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

HANG ON THERE SANDRA!!! ONE MORE DAY TO GO AND YOU WILL BE FREE FROM EXAMS FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!!!! GIVE IT YOUR BEST SHOT FOR THIS VERY LAST ROUND!

Geee....... I think I'm going crazy! Wish that I could burn my International textbook and drink it with water!

*Kill me! I'm dying!*

Birthday

2006-05-01T13:02:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: November 16

You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head.
You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking.
People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right.
You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself.

Your strength: Your original approach to thinking

Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others

Your power color: Pale blue

Your power symbol: Wavy line

Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Seriously, I do not agree on the part where it claim that I'm introverted and I'm SHY! Got to be joking man. Ha ha......

exams

2006-04-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

RICHARD, Je NE SOUHAITE VOUS PARLER PLUS! BOO HOO HOO...... (Richard, I don't wish to talk to you anymore! boo hoo hoo.....)

Yesterday was my BGGC paper and it was Richard last paper! Unfortunately,it's not for me *Sign*, I still left with International marketing paper. The most sucky part is that there's no tips from my dear Mr. Bod Foo (my lecturer) and he did not even went through past year papers with us (unlike Mr. Jeffery Goh and Shermen). I wonder how am I going to complete 20 chapters in 4 days time *arghhhh...*

Je déteste IM!!!!

I have a dream

2006-04-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

I have a dream...... I have a dream......

Last afternoon, I came back from church and headed straight to my bed and sleep for a long time. I fall into deep peaceful sleep.

"Come on, let's praise the Lord! " I shouted. "One thing, Jesus, You're the only one I'll live for You......" The crowd sing along with me. I looked across the audiences, thousands and thousands of people are singing Praise and Worship with me.

Suddenly, a chill went down to my spine. I started to tremble and spoke to God, "Oh no, Father you got to be kidding." I ran away from the stage and many looked at me in bewilder. I ran and ran as fast as I could. Passes blocks after blocks of buildings.

Well, you can never outrun God because He will just simply find you wherever you go. The very next moment I was flying in the sky! Btw, the scene looks like the opening of Smallville, the superman show ha ha...... God pointed out a small old tatted looking church in a wilderness.

"Do you want to be there? In a small church and do something small for me or you want to serve me with great things and wonders? The choice is yours." God said.

"Father, how can I sing and do great thing for you? I'm just someone who only sings in the bathroom and in my room and most of the time is off key. How can I be a Praise and Worship singer? My desire is to help out in the children church ministry not in choir." I cried out and look at God.

At that very moment, a firm soft voice whisper in my ears. "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future. GIVE YOU HOPE AND FUTURE" This sounded so familiar I thought to myself. Isn't this the verse which I have been holding on for years? Tears rolled down my cheeks and I wept like a child.

I stirred and woke up from my dream.

My cat can talk!

2006-04-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

All creatures shall now bow down and give praise and thanks to the Lord.

It's amazing that my cat can sing praise and worship. I know it sounded ridiculous but it true. I heard it with my own ears!!! Friends who been to my house know that my cat is very quiet and she rarely meows.

As usual, I will listen to praise and worhsip before I start doing my work. Most of the time, I will sing praise and worhsip to God. Just a few mintues ago, I was listening to this song, Emmanuel. It goes Holy, Holy I will bow before...... Emmanuel, Jesus Christ. When the song was at "Emmanuel" my cat just meows EEEEEEEMMMUUEEEEELL. It sound like she saying Emmanuel! PTL!!!

Interview

2006-04-21T14:46:00.001+08:00

I went for the interview at MOE yesterday. It lasted for around 5 mins. It's such a coincident that Uncle Subash's brother is one of the panel member. Thank God for blessing me to be favored in people. I really hope that I will be recruited to be a teacher. Friends, do pray for me ya.

NIE here i come

2006-04-18T17:48:00.000+08:00

Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! Thank You heavenly Papa!

I've just receive an reply for my application for teaching. It's successful! All my life, I always wanted to to be teacher and now God has answer my prayer. Indeed God keeps His promises, Amen!

I rememebered that when I first sent my application for teaching in 2003 after grad from Poly it was unsucessful and I headed straight to RMIT to do my degree. 2 months ago, I decided to try again and this time round it sucessful. I pray that I will get into teaching. My mom, begin a wet blanket was commenting that it's an interview and I may not get in. Well at least there's hope.

Father thank you for love and faith.I commit myself into You hand. If it's your will let it be done. Love ya.Amen!

Sis and Bro pray for me ya!

2006-04-18T16:27:00.000+08:00

Got this from my friend, Richard.

Men Are Hard To Please. I do agree with dome some of the pointers but no all.

The problems with GUYS:

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him

If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him

If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN

If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.

If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE

If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u

If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)

If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him

If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.

If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;

If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.

If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him

If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;

If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;

If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.

If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK

If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL

If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!

SO HARD TO PLEASE!!!!!

choice of life

2006-04-18T10:48:00.000+08:00

Life is such with tons of decisions to make everyday. Especially when both men appear in your life and you have to choose one. Love love love......

Wondering who to choose? Follow your heart and your feeling. My advice is that once you have made the decision don't ever regret nor look back.

Ah Zhi,
Frankly speaking, I do not know them personally but through the conversation I can feel that both of them do really like you. Well, think over it carefully, A is going back to his hometown in a few years time and B is now having his overseas exchange programme (Errr......you never know what he did over there. Ok, it sounded negative. Hee hee.....).

Do think over the following questions before decision making. This is just a guideline and you can add on your own questions for evaluation. (Gosh, I feel that I'm so business oriented, typical marketing student. lol)

It's Evaluation Time

Are you ready for relationship? (If your answer is NO, then you can forget to answer the rest of the question.)

Do you really like him or do you treat him like a brother or close friend?

Do you feel happy or comfortable when you are with him?

Does he click well with your friends and family?

Does his or your family can accept you or him?

Who do you think will bring happiness to you in the future?

Is he the person who can really lead you in daily life?

Is he the one who can lead you from friendship to courtship to matrimony?

Is he someone that you really want to spend the rest of your life with?

Think over it carefully and guard your heart. Hmmm... keep this in mind that things will change before and after courtship and also before and after marriage. Think over it and ask Shi Yun to pray with you ya.

Ps: I know it's sounded extravagant to talk about marriage but doesn't a relationship lead to the path of marriage in one fine day?

Take care

Easter

2006-04-16T17:20:00.000+08:00

What's more valuable than your own life?

Martin, Lay Ping, Sandy, Soon Hin and I headed towards Noya cafe straight after the service. On our way, we saw one of our cg friends sitting alone at one of the cafe. Martin went forward to say hi to him and we followed him.

"Hey, what are you doing here?” I looked at him.
"I...... I......I want to die" he said sadly. At the point of time, I was stunned and thought that I must have hearing problem.
"What did you say? Can you say again?" I exclaimed.
"I don't want to live anymore! I want to die......” He started to sob as he said.

I was loss for words at that very moment. Fancy a Christian thought of killing himself on Easter day. The day whereby Christ was crucified on the cross for us, sinners and rose again on the third day which is today, Easter! Jesus died for us sinner on the cross to wash away our sins with his precious blood. Now, I heard from him personally that he wanted to die! Gosh!!!

Martin decided to stay with him and settled our lunch at the cafe. Martin, a trained counselor started to counsel him and talk him out of attempting suicide for hours. Thank God, he decided not to commit suicide anymore.

It's so amazing that how God uses his children to help the needy and those who are troubled. Initially, we don't intend to go for lunch and wanted to headed straight back home. We just thought of accompanying Lay Ping for lunch and decided to check out at the new restaurant. It's such a coincident or rather by divine fate to see him alone at the café which we didn't intend to visit. Most importantly, I asked a stupid question on “hey, what are you doing here?” which is so obvious that he's having his lunch. Thought of it, if I have not asked such silly question, I doubt that we will know what is going on and his intention of killing himself. Well, by God's grace, we have managed to talk him out and he looked more cheerful than before.

Dear Bro,

Remember what you've promised us. Hold on to this verse, Be still and know I'm God. Whenever, you're down or troubled looked upon God and He will guide you by His mercy and grace. You've yet to fulfill your purpose in life and life is precious. Many people out there are struggling for survival and we should love our body of Christ more than ever. God created us and our lives is His not yours nor ours. If I can overcome those trials of fires, why can't you? We'll be there for you ya! Remember, God keeps His promises and His love for us is unfailing ya.

Take care

the benefits of wisdom

2006-04-14T21:00:00.001+08:00

The Benefits of Wisdom

My child,listen to me and treasure my instructions. Tune your ears to wisdom, and concentrate on understanding. Cry out for insight and understanding.

Proverbs 2: 1-3

The best study strategy from God.

I just share my worries with XH. I fear that I would not do well for my overall result. He gave me two verses from the bible.

Jeremiah 29:11"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."

When I first joined CHC, Sister Yvonne gave me this book mark which has this verse printed at the back. Since then I've been holding on to this verse and today this verse bounce back really hard at me. Well, trust in the Lord that all I could say.

2 Chronicles 20:15 15 He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's.

nerd score

2006-04-14T11:57:00.000+08:00

My nerd score
71% scored higher (more nerdy), and 29% scored lower (less nerdy).
What does this mean?
Your nerdiness is:Not nerdy, but definitely not hip.

Phew! Thank God, I'm not that nerdy. Ha ha..

Lighthearted

2006-04-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

Why be like the pagans who are so deeply concerned about these things? Your heavenly Father already knows all your needs, and he will give you all you need from day to day if you live for him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern. "So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today.

Matthew6 :32-34

What more can I ask for when God showed this verse to me at this point of my life.